Thursday, October 29, 2009
It is hard to believe that I am already six months into my pregnancy. So much has happened since Tim and I first discovered we were having twins, it is really hard to wrap my head around it all. In retrospect the time has really flown by, as I know it will continue to do. I can honestly say that despite the anxiety and worry that this pregnancy has brought me, I have enjoyed being pregnant. I feel like a completely different person than I was last year at this time. It is as if I have found a piece of myself that I had not realized was there. I feel more like a woman than I ever have before, and I am repeatedly impressed by what my body is capable of. I have always considered myself a strong and resilient person, and once again the circumstances in my life has reaffirmed this assertion. It is amazing to feel my tiny twin girls moving inside me, amazing and reassuring. Feeling them move tells me that they are strong and they are hanging on and so it gives me the strength to do that myself. Maybe they are like their mommy already! I am extremely nervous about being admitted into the hospital next week. Although two months in the big scheme of things is not a lot of time, I will miss being away from Tim and my kitty and my home. It is sure to be a challenging time for me, but I am ready to do what it necessary for our family. I am excited in a way to enter the next stage of this pregnancy and protect these girls the best way that I can. I can't wait to see their beautiful faces and hold them in my arms. I do have to say that the support that I have had from my loved ones and friends has been amazing. The generosity that has been shown to us already is overwhelming. It is hard to find words to thank everyone. I am truly blessed with family and a remarkably supportive and loving husband. Tim has shown me what marriage and love is, and I am so grateful to have him. Without these people in my life, I would have never been able to get through this. Next week will be here before I know it, and I can't wait to check on the status of the girls. More to come.